It seems as if to me everyone's parents (form 5's) are more pressured than their kids themselves over SPM. Here I have my parents going on about how I'm definately gonna fail SPM if I don't, how do you put it? Oh yeah, be more studios, and work much much harder. Like twenty times the effort I'm putting in now. I for one have not yet run amok, screaming SPM!! SPM!! DIE!! DIE!! arghhhhhh.....

   But then again, I guess it's their job right? to worry. It would be very unatural if they don't. Right? So if my mum were to say she doesn't wanna care anymore, she's just saying it right? Ah..I know she is. But let's just say I'm too stubborn so I might as well use this opportunity to piss her of even more than usual.

   Hmmm...but then it'll mean I'm a horrible daughter. hehehe. Is that a good thing? hmmm....maybe? As much as I love her, I'm so so mad at her. She blames me for everything like I'm such a bloody mistake. If she could not have me she would. Makes me wonder if she really loves me?

   I thought mum's are suppose to be your closest or best friend, but mine isn't even my friend. I wish she would just try to understand and stop claiming that she's always right in every aspect on any decision made and stop making me feel so insecure.