I find life ever so changing. There is never a point in life to feel secure. I guess that's how I feel. Maybe that's why I'm writting bout this. Life is like a box of chocolate. It means that life is very very uexpected, somehow like a box of chocolate. You nevr know what you're getting out of it. It's quoted from the movie Forrest Gump. Watched it before? If not go watch!! good movie..hehe

    I'm sorta pissed now. Just typed a lot alot alot and the page just shut by itself. Well I guess gotta start again.

    Life, why must it change? Is it so impossible to feel secure? Perhaps that's all that matters to me. I don't know why it matters so much. Security, that is. Can we or should we live life for the moment or is it wiser to plan your steps. Plan it all to always be guaranteed something in the end.

    In my life, it's all about uncertanties. I'm never sure if it's the right decision, and I do have that annoying habbit of ensuring everything is proper. Why not just go the flow? Because I can't. It's so annoying to see how perfect peoples life turn out to be. and mine, goes all the wrong directions. I guess in a teen's life, it's a constant struggle to find out who you really are and what is it that really matters.

    I want too many things out of life to make anything possible at all. Firstly, i'm too lazy to do anything. So tht sorta sums it all up. I'm going no where. Perhaps I wish I had the help in certain things. Like when you don't know where to go. i wish there was someone there to guide me. If not life will be so much more uncertain to me. Would it be better to know what the future holds for you or leave it as a mistery? I really think I have no social life anymore. But those are things you can gain again. So it doesn't really mater for now. I guess. But deep down, there's a million things i wish for. Impossible but maybe not so.

    There's some sort of emptiness i feel inside but don't know what it is. Could life be this hard, or do i make it this hard. Is life really that simple? Is it possible to feel secure? Will i be happy if i just got the straight a's everybody's fighting for? Or am I getting it cuz everyone's getting it and everyone thinks it 's bloody important.

    Why do we need those a's anyway? I mean unless you're plannning to be a doctor or something like that. But if your main focus is to do something that does not even require subjects like bio or chem? why take it and kill yourself for the a? why? you don't even need it for heaven's sake. But I guess we're all kiasu people. And we follow the crowd. No a's = dumb dumb.  =) kill me for having a point of view!